Goodbye

I have to say goodbye for the last time to the man who loved me to the best of his abilities for nearly 14 years. I have to say goodbye the man who gave me our buggy. I would have made our last goodbye last longer if I would have known. I would have told you that despite the eventual end to our relationship as husband and wife that I loved you. I loved the part of you who loved our daughter ferociously. I loved the part of you who could outfit a friend for whatever outdoor endeavor you could convince them to go on at a moments notice. I loved the part of you who always made sure my backpack was packed, even if I thought I was taking WAY to much stuff. I loved the part of you who after 14 years could still come up with little sayings that I had never heard before that would always make me giggle. You'd always be like "what" and always say "I just don't know where you come up with these things". I loved the public persona that you were able to put on. I loved that you could find common ground with a stranger and strike up a conversation. I loved your trusting nature that once caused you to give a stranger $20.00 because he swore he just needed to borrow it. I loved that part of you who used to be able to make the best of a situation. Like camping out in the cab of a truck because when we arrived at our campsite it was pouring down rain. I loved that you helped me experience life. I would never have skied without you, I would never have snorkeled the San Juan's or the Caribbean without you. I would have never kayaked without you. I would never have boogie boarded if it wasn't for you.

I am choosing today to focus on the good times we shared as a family. It is these moments that I will hold in my heart forever and relish in retelling Carina.

Thank you for being in Carina and I's life if only for so short a time.